I haven't had much going on the last couple of weeks so I haven't had anything to post! I keep checking Shirlene & Kristin's blog and they haven't posted much either- Kristin you need to space those posts out! Don't do them all at once! I need something to read everyday! lol

I have been working alot, editing alot, I did a maternity session this week, and a wedding on Lake Tahoe on Friday, I did some nice sky shots, the sun looks very sparkly.

On the way back from the wedding I saw this shack out of the corner of my eye so I turned around and drove back, pulled over, and walked out into this meadow. Surrounded by aspens and birch trees was this fabulous old settler's homesteader's shack and an outhouse! Totally loved it. I think it was gorgeous.

I will post them here so you have something to look at. If you want to see wedding pictures or baby pictures you have to look at my other blog, http://www.eheizerphotography.blogspot.com/

Ok, here's the pictures of my new favorite spot!

Queen Anne's Lace, which always reminds me of the Anne of Green Gables series, I love it!

I FINALLY HAVE A GOOD DEAL TO SHARE!

Whewhoo! I went shopping with my friend Carmen for lack of a better thing to do on Tuesday afternoon, and we went to the Nordstrom Rack and I randomly tried on this pretty emerald dress and Carmen said it looked so awesome on me I'd "be a fool not to buy it!!!" So I did! The dress is some designer I have never heard of and the regular price was $150.00, and I got it on clearance for $34.95. How about that? It is silky soft and very comfortable and goes right over my head I dont even have to un zip it, but I have no idea where I would wear it. But it was such a deal and it looked so much nicer than the other dresses I have- even the dress I wore to my Law School prom (aka Barrister's Ball) that I had to get it!

It is mer-maid style and has a little train, and you can just barely see my shoes if I wear high heels so the length is perfect too. What do you think?

Here are some pictures.

My last grade came in, it was for my Ethics class...

I got a B-.

So that's nice. But that's basically all it is, because it won't pull my gpa high enough because it's only a 2 unit class and my other classes were 6 units- and I got C's in those.

So I am pleased but I am not. A B- is not high enough for me to clearly and confidantly say that " I did a great job and I am totally meant to be a lawyer." But a B- is not low enough for me to say, "Wow, I am an idiot. I need to do something ele with my life."





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So, I guess a B- is nice. I got an 85 and an 80 on my essays and a 60 on the multiple choice (there were 14 questions, and they were in essay form. I didn't think I did that bad, but oh, well.)

Um........

So, on Saturday I shot a wedding in Mendocino and my friend Cecilia came to help me because it was 4 hours driving each way and we decided we want to go back and take pictures on the road out there because it was so pretty!

Here is Cecilia:

Here is the bride getting even with her groom:







We didn't get back until 1230am, and then I had to get up at 6am on Sunday to go with my sister's family to Bullard's Bar for Father's Day wakeboarding fun, but I went against my will. My sister told me I would ruin their day if I didn't go and hold the flag on the boat, because otherwise my sister and her husband wouldn't be able to ski because one person has to drive and one person over 12 ( My nephew is 11) has to hold the flag. SIGH! So I went. I did wakeboard. It was fun, and it was better than it usually is because I did not get a migraine from being in the sun, I did not get burned, and I did not throw up from being carsick on the way there OR on the way back, and there was overall less bickering in general... we are big on the bickering.


So here I am wakeboarding. My sister didn't take any pictures of me jumping the wake so I am sad. I think my thighs look extraordinarily huge. Don't you agree? Ick. But much better than last year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PHEW!




I have been bad with my food the last week. How can I get motivated and under control again? I think I need a schedule and things to do away from the house during the day to stop eating but those things cost money and staying home and working earns money so I am staying home currently, which is bad for my diet.



I also made bi-racial cookies today.


I am calling them bi-racial cookies because I made them with dark chocolate chip and white chocolate chips. ( I am kidding, but I think I am oh-so-funny)

They are Bi-Racial SPLENDA cookies with light butter (50 cals/tab) They turned out great, which was exciting. They have brown sugar splenda now, and that is exciting all the stuff you can do with it, but it costs a flippin' fortune. It is like $7 a bag and regular sugar is like $1 but the money is worth it to me when I am trying to eat bad things and not gain weight- so we have the sugar free cookie, which tastes the same, but it stays a pale creamy color instead of turning brownish like normal fatty cookies. I just followed the recipe like normal but used white sugar splenda (no calories) and brown sugar splenda (10 calories and you use 50% less than regular brown sugar because it's concentrated) and light butter, which has less calories than margarine- 50 instead of 70 (Imperial) or 100 (real butter).

Cool huh? Way better for you, but still bad.

So that's my weekend.

TA DA.

Make sure you are checking my photography blog regularly because I update at least once a week (usually sundays after I finish editing from the wedding on Saturday) and I just changed everything on my website AND on my blog and they look GREAT! You can leave comments over there too because I think they are great.

Oh, and I forgot, I send in pictures from TWO weddings into The Knot Wedding Magazine to possibly be published in their "Real Weddings" section. I don't even know if I did it right, but we will see. Cross your fingers for me. I don't get anything, but being published would be AMAZING and I would love to be published my last year of wedding photography before I "retire"... way to go out with a bang! The two weddings I sent in were "Josh & Krista" and "Matthew & Jennifer"

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I withdrew from law school today. I got C's. For me, a C isn't going to get me a degree. I feel really confused. I don't know what to do now. I don't have any direction.

My friend took me to the book store and made me flip through career books to help me figure out what I like or am interested in.

While doing that i remembered that I really wanted to be a librarian once upon a time.

So I went home to see if I could track down a Master's in Library Science program.

The closest school is in San Jose. That's a couple hour drive from here. That won't work.

So then I looked at the programs for English, Education, Social Work, Sociology, Public Policy & Administration and Marine Science. I am so not into any of their programs.

I emailed the head of the department for Government. I was feeling really overwhelmed 2 seconds ago and I just now remembered I emailed the department head for Government and that makes me feel a little better because I forgot.

I really don't want to write a thesis. I don't know what to write about. I don't know what kind of a job I would want after I graduate.

I got so ....whatever, let's stick with 'overwhelmed'... I got so overwhelmed that I started looking up the credential programs too, for both Multi-subject (elementry school) and single ( jr high and high school). I already took and passed the CBEST a few years ago as a back up plan in case law school didn't work out. That test should still be good, I would think anyway. But then I started looking up all the stuff I have to do to get in the program and could I really picture myself teaching again anyway and I started feeling overwhelmed again.

Then I was looking at jobs online and instead of being excited about being able to work normal hours and find something reagular to do, I felt ... overwhelemed and anxious and disinterested.

I don't know what I want, I dont know what I should be doing, or perhaps I am just not ready to be thinking about all of this but I am really FREAKING OUT in not having a direction.

I will need to tell my family what happened soon, but I want to have a plan when I do so, and I dont have one.

I am a big mess. :(