Bummer

Well, first of all, my sweet little Lulu was adopted by some other family. :( As was her almost-as-cute sister. :( Her brother is still available, but he really looks like a chiahuahua and I just don't swing that way. lol

Next bummer... I found another doggie that looks just like my kitties! Her name is Molly and she is a basset/dauchshund mix! I was so excited! In fact, I was SO excited, I even CALLED the woman to ask about the dog!

But she has an adoption pending too... :(

Before I get really attached to some dog that actually is available, I need to find out the pet limits for my complex. If 3 pets is against the rules, then I cant do anything... I can't risk putting myself in a situation where I either have to move, or give up one of kids. Even though I honestly think my property management would never know... the office is only open with someone here like once a month it seems like...

Next bummer is Matty is totally camped out in the man-cave. He officially turned down the special agent job, and I think it just really depressed him. It was probably the right choice... but it just set him off into that "I'm a failure" downward spiral that I am oh-too familar with personally. There isn't alot I can do for him long distance. I feel bad for him. I wish I could help cheer him up but I don't really think there is anything to do except be available, and "soft" ( you know, easy to come to) and wait.

This sucks for me of course because I miss him. I miss his hugs and kisses and his lovies. I know he loves me, but I still wish I could have him at my disposal at every second of the day.

But I also have faith that this is a period in his life which will pass. As is this period in mine... where I feel lost most of the time. I do feel more at ease in my work lately, and have found myself putting out some really great work lately, with help from the new camera: http://www.eheizerphotography.com I looked at my stuff from the last few weeks and I am like, wow, this looks like it wa shot by a professional! lol But I'm not consistent and I make lots of mistakes, but I am learning from my new camera that interchangable lenses bring power... and I really like what I can do when I have that additional control. I think instead of saving up to replace my camera ruined by waves, that i will instead invest in my (alleged) ability to learn something new and save up for a lens for my fancy camera instead. The two lenses I have aren't actually supposed to go on my camera, and when you look through the viewfinder, lets say you see a 6 by 6 sqaure... well the camera only photographs a 1 by 1 square in the middle because it's not the right lens... Yeah. Not so good when you keep forgetting that it does that.

Anyway, so I am feeling better and stuff, but my sleep patterns are off- sleepin' all day, awake all night- Matty is in his man-cave with his head in the sand, hiding from the world, and I'm pretty lonely. Hmmph. :/