Dragging my feet

to get back on the bandwagon.

I've put on 5-10 pounds in the last few months, which isn't much, but just enough for me to look pregnant naked. Although my cats do not mind, and actually perceive this to be a plus, as there are now more squishy soft parts of me in which to knead their paws, Mommy is not so down with the new "convex" figure.

I was just leaving a comment on one of my new "talking" blogs. (As in, it feels more like a chat about nothing, like a chat with a girlfriend, than about an actual subject, like weddings, which is my whole life and work, so I really like these kinds of blogs and wish I knew of more of them! Here's the link: http://www.nevergrowningold.blogspot.com

Anyway, she posted a bad food list yesterday and it just really bummed me out. I like bad food. Bad food is convenient. Bad food requires little effort. Bad food taste great. Bad food clogs your arteries and kills you at 50. CURSES!

So I want to get back on the diet bandwagon and get as cute and skinny as Kristin, who has way more drive and self control than I do. (Of course, she is still cheating with breast feeding, which is so not fair because I spend at least an hour a day with my cat trying to nurse on my arm and just licking all the skin off instead... I should get extra WW points for that!)

I have been terrible about exercise. I lost all interest in it and have no drive whatsoever. I haven't been since February. And I pay a monthly membership. But I love my gym so I can't quit. It's like going to a spa! But I am seriously lacking in drive.

And food? I know for me food is the key to weight loss. Exercise will tone me up, but has never been an effective tool for me unless I am able to run. And since my knee issues prevent me from running pretty much ever again, the exercise part of the reigm is more for internal health than external beauty. But I know it's necessary. I'm way too sedentary working from home.

But here's my problem with food. I don't want to cook. It makes a mess in my kitchen and after months of cooking every day and the constant mess I am just "done" at the moment. I know I will return to my food network obsession at some point, but right now, laziness is king. I'd rather eat cereal for dinner every night than cook. Dont ask me why because I have no idea.

So there you have it. I dont want to put any effort into my food, but I want to eat to lose weight and be healthy. But I dont wanna do the frozen meals- smart ones and lean cuisine- not only because of the cost, but because of the sodium factor. And I ate those suckers every day for like a year and I'm just not interested.

Ok, so go. Shoot. Solve my problems with brilliant solutions internet.