I'm going to Utah in 7 days. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are going to make doughnuts. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am going to force Kristin into taking pictures with me. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to Utah! Yay, yay, YAY!

SUCCESS! I am a BONA-FIDE CHERRY PIE BAKER!


Voila! Success! Baby cherry pies for my "man friend" YAY Aren't they pretty???

So you roll out the pie dough super thin, and then I used a cupcake liner to cut the pastry to the right size. then I cut a little triangle out of the circles so they fit better. Then I squished them into the pan.

Then I put the cherry filling in, with a little bit of flour so the runny part wouldn't leak out of the pie.

Then I made the lattice tops, which is super easy, popped them in the oven, and VOILA! All done.

CAN SHE BAKE A CHERRY PIE, BILLY BOY, BILLY BOY? CAN SHE BAKE A CHERRY PIE, CHARMING BILLY?

My first attempt at cherry tarts/turnovers. Ugh. Not so pretty. I am not a fan. I am going to have to try again. I want to make something that is mailable, as this is for my "man friend" for his birthday.

LOL LOL LOL! Man friend? LOL LOL LOL!

I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT!!!

Ahh! I don't know what I want to do with my life! I am so frustrated! I am good at photography and make quite alot of money doing with with repsective little effort. (It's alot of work, but it doesn't feel like it in comparison to the pay) And I could make alot more if I crossed over and became a "professional" including the licenses, insurance, shooting more technically, upgrading my equipment, etc. But I just don't like the chaos of it. The schedule is irregular, I work every single weekend and at home isolated during the week. I thought about the idea of baby photography like Skye Johansen, but there aren't as many babies here in the market for fabulous pictures like that and I don't have a knack with photographing children yet like I do with couples.

I am really frsutrated with law school and everything that has happened since I have been in it. I have had like the endless stream of bad luck ever since I first got my acceptance to Western and it has been downhill from then, people died, pets died, people having nervous breakdowns, huge amounts of weight gain, relationship problems, friendship problems, work problems, financial problems, being harrassed and stalked! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Is this is the universe's way of telling me this is the wrong path for me, or has it just been a really crummy 3 years??

A thought that occured to me today was getting a Master's in History, and I could enroll as soon as Spring and I wouldn't have to take the GRE... honestly the idea was this HUGE relief. The thought of just reading in a more relaxed way and not having to take notes and just writing term papers- WHAT A RELIEF that would be!!! Doing research.... hanging out in the basement at sac state going through the periodicals.... So nice! AHHH Something I know how to do and isn't that hard!!! And I used to love it until I had this huge issue with a particular professor my last semester which totally killed my dreams of teaching high school history. I wanted nothing to do with the history department whatsoever the exerience was so negative.

But now I am wondering... and then now I am wondering, but if I did that, what kind of a job could I get when I graduated?????

I am still sick and have been sick for a week and a half now. YUCK

EVERYONE should be reading my favorite blog, THE MEANEST MOM, which is a hilarious take on every day life with three kids close in age (She had her daughter Camber, and then twin boys 8 months later.... all in the same calendar year!!! She also just had her 4th child, a little boy who is in the hospital and is very sick.)

I also updated my blog list on the right. My Sweet & Saucy is GREAT reading and awesome pictures!!!

I am in Orange County visiting the fam and hopefully going on a date. We will see now, won't we.

(Oh and I updated the links that weren't working on friends too.)

Attacked by the Cat!

ITS NOT TRUE!

It's not true! I have not fallen off the planet, I promise. Well, ok sort of. I sort of fell off, but only a little so it doesn't count.

So I was having a really rough time the last time I posted with finding out David was getting married and having a horrible time trying to study for the Baby Bar.

I am still struggling, and am totally slacking off in the studying department. As in, I am basically not doing it at all, and every time I sit down with my books I fall asleep. I am not sure what to do about that. I am pretty sure this is what I want but I am totally unmotivated. So, what do I do to fix it? I have no idea. There is only about 5 weeks until the exam and I am totally out of time. I need to get rolling or this is going to be a big fat waste of money. ($600!!!)

I think part of what the deal is, is that I am totally DONE with being at home. I want something to do, I want a change. What I really want is to go back to work and be around people again. I have been home since the end of May and I have had enough. I am lonely, and I long for a regular paycheck and co-workers to be around... a regular schedule and not feeling like I am supposed to be working all hours of the day or night on my photography stuff. So I am frustrated. I think I am sort of subconciously just waiting until the exam so I can stop being at home and look for a job. But I am supposed to be studying until then, and instead I am just screwing around waiting. Like I am going through the motions but not really doing it. Which is stupid and defeats the whole purpose of staying home this whole time.

Next up, I have been a bit distracted by the sudden overflowing of interested men in my life. There were 3 main guys who were chasing me starting the weekend after my last post, totally bizarre, they all just popped up at the same time. After a couple of weeks, one of them had me completely hooked, but I didn't want to put too much pressure on him by just focusing on him, so I kept the other two around but wasn't really interested anymore. So a month goes by and it's down to just the one guy I liked the best, and then he goes and spooks himself and falls of the planet! So I am back to being lonely. I am up for keeping things casual with him, but he's not around much so I'm not sure what to think. So I reconnected with one of the guys from before, but I'm not really interested so that doesn't seem fair to the poor guy. lol RAWR!

And lastly, my cat attacked me. I already posted this on my other blog so I am cheating and just copying and pasting. Here is the story:

My neighbors were having a party and were being really rude and loud. They threw some stuff down into my patio and I made them come down and clean it up. After awhile I tried to go to sleep, but someone in their unit was snoring so loud I could hear them through the ceiling, and I actually finally had to switch my sleeping position ( my ultimate doom) so that my head was by the footboard so the noise from their unit wasn't so distracting and so I could sleep. I was suddenly awoken by a horrible slicing/choping sensation on my neck following by horrible owchiness pain.

Amelia tried to kill me.

Ok, not really, but that's what it looks like! I think because I was sleeping the wrong way, she didn't realize I was there and thought I was a pile of blankets and so she accidentally jumped on my neck on her way to jumping on the window sill.

My assailant, on the left.


Pouting over my ugliness.



If you've ever wanted to check out my moles...



When I realized I don't have any turtlenecks...



It has been almost a week and I obsessively rubbed neosporin on it every day so it looks alot better now but this story was too good not to post. Crazy cat.