How long can I possibly sit here and put off going to sleep?
No matter how tired I am, or how much I love sleeping... or how tired my animals are, already curled up in their own beds or under the covers even, still, I just do anything I can think of to just avoid putting down the distraction, and turning over to sleep.
Because that's when the tears come.
Just thinking about trying to stop distracting myself and going to sleep... and the tears stream down. I hate going to sleep. I hate being left alone with my thoughts. I hate feeling alone with him gone. Not "being alone" but of being alone in this life without him in it. And then angry for all that he has done.
I hate going to bed.
2 comments:
I know how you feel. For different reasons, but I know how you feel.
Nights are the hardest for everyone who has something they regret, or something they'd like to change. That's why the only people who sleep soundly are children and babies. :o)
And you were right on the money with Kate Hudson in How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days. :o) Good catch! That movie came out while my husband and I were dating and I have used that nickname on him ever since. (Even though he can't stand it!)
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