Attacked by the Cat!

ITS NOT TRUE!

It's not true! I have not fallen off the planet, I promise. Well, ok sort of. I sort of fell off, but only a little so it doesn't count.

So I was having a really rough time the last time I posted with finding out David was getting married and having a horrible time trying to study for the Baby Bar.

I am still struggling, and am totally slacking off in the studying department. As in, I am basically not doing it at all, and every time I sit down with my books I fall asleep. I am not sure what to do about that. I am pretty sure this is what I want but I am totally unmotivated. So, what do I do to fix it? I have no idea. There is only about 5 weeks until the exam and I am totally out of time. I need to get rolling or this is going to be a big fat waste of money. ($600!!!)

I think part of what the deal is, is that I am totally DONE with being at home. I want something to do, I want a change. What I really want is to go back to work and be around people again. I have been home since the end of May and I have had enough. I am lonely, and I long for a regular paycheck and co-workers to be around... a regular schedule and not feeling like I am supposed to be working all hours of the day or night on my photography stuff. So I am frustrated. I think I am sort of subconciously just waiting until the exam so I can stop being at home and look for a job. But I am supposed to be studying until then, and instead I am just screwing around waiting. Like I am going through the motions but not really doing it. Which is stupid and defeats the whole purpose of staying home this whole time.

Next up, I have been a bit distracted by the sudden overflowing of interested men in my life. There were 3 main guys who were chasing me starting the weekend after my last post, totally bizarre, they all just popped up at the same time. After a couple of weeks, one of them had me completely hooked, but I didn't want to put too much pressure on him by just focusing on him, so I kept the other two around but wasn't really interested anymore. So a month goes by and it's down to just the one guy I liked the best, and then he goes and spooks himself and falls of the planet! So I am back to being lonely. I am up for keeping things casual with him, but he's not around much so I'm not sure what to think. So I reconnected with one of the guys from before, but I'm not really interested so that doesn't seem fair to the poor guy. lol RAWR!

And lastly, my cat attacked me. I already posted this on my other blog so I am cheating and just copying and pasting. Here is the story:

My neighbors were having a party and were being really rude and loud. They threw some stuff down into my patio and I made them come down and clean it up. After awhile I tried to go to sleep, but someone in their unit was snoring so loud I could hear them through the ceiling, and I actually finally had to switch my sleeping position ( my ultimate doom) so that my head was by the footboard so the noise from their unit wasn't so distracting and so I could sleep. I was suddenly awoken by a horrible slicing/choping sensation on my neck following by horrible owchiness pain.

Amelia tried to kill me.

Ok, not really, but that's what it looks like! I think because I was sleeping the wrong way, she didn't realize I was there and thought I was a pile of blankets and so she accidentally jumped on my neck on her way to jumping on the window sill.

My assailant, on the left.


Pouting over my ugliness.



If you've ever wanted to check out my moles...



When I realized I don't have any turtlenecks...



It has been almost a week and I obsessively rubbed neosporin on it every day so it looks alot better now but this story was too good not to post. Crazy cat.

STUFF

Ok, so apparently my identity got stolen!

I had been getting these weird calls from what sounded like a solictor and I don't answer calls form people I don't know, and when they would leave a message, they wouldn't say what company they were calling from. They've called like 25 times in the last 3 weeks. With everything that's been going on, I couldn't deal with it anyway.

Well I listened to one message a couple days ago and they mentioned my Citi credit card, and I was like, "...Wah?" Because I haven't used the card in like 2 years!

So today I logged into the account, and it had a $1,500.00 balance! I was freaking out, I was like HOLY COW how did I spend $1500 and not notice or forgot about it!?

So I looked at the charges, and they weren't mine! $1,500.00 in charges made in FLORIDA at Walmart, 7-11 and the RACETRACK. Ok, obviously not me.

So I called the company, and they said they'd close the account, and take care of the fraud charges. I hope this also means all the late fees and finance charges too since there were only fees and charges because of the fraudlent charges... but she didn't actually say that so I am wary it's not over yet.

It also really irks me because I would think that those charges on my account would be a HUGE red flag to the company. A credit card is not used since 2005, and then suddently there are over $1,000 in charges made across the country from where the card holder lives? HELLO?

I am glad I canceled it, clearly, they are a bad company.

Ok, and here are some skinny pictures of me. I am wearing size 12 pants today. yay!

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, so wish me luck on that. :/

Oh, and here are some pictures of my sisters and I when we went camping and wakeboarding a few weeks ago. I feel like I look yucky in this picture. Do you like our matching shirts? I got them for my sisters because when Kristin and I go boating we are always screaming, "RELAX!" at the kids and then we sing the song, "RELAX, don't do it...!"

So I thought it was funny! lol

HOUSEKEEPING INSPECTION

The lady FINALLY came by today after not showing up yesterday, and then claiming that I had missed my appointment on Tuesday by not being home. (But my appointment wasn't on Tuesday, we moved it to Wednesday because I was just coming home from camping and knew the house would be a mess... so the property manager changed it to Wednesday for me, all of which this lady in the office denied, DESPITE THE FACT that she herself was the one who wrote down the appointment- as in I WATCHED her change it. ARGH)

Anyway, so they finally did it today. She was in my house, literally less than 60 seconds. She walked straight through to my bedroom, said my grandmother's painting was "lovely" and said my room was nice. THen she said it was all fine by her and walked right out again. All that stress for NOTHING? ARGH.

So she said I passed, but I'll believe when I don't get a stinkin' 30 day notice on my door.... Ugh, this management company is just bizarre.

Mars & Venus Starting Over

http://www.amazon.com/Mars-Venus-Starting-Over-Practical/dp/0060930276/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1216797538&sr=8-1

This is the book I started reading a couple days ago. I am reading it pretty slowly as work is keeping me busy, as well as getting my home clean again for my inspection. Everything has to be perfect so I can get back under my lease again and they fix my stinkin' garbage disposal because it is now having trouble draining and literally, stinks!

I went camping with the family this weekend. It was miserable trying to hold my emotions in. We also didn't take the boat out until Monday (got there Saturday) which annoyed and frustrated me because that's my stress relief. The stress and annoyance of parenting other people's children on a boat is suprisingly comforting to me because of it's familiarity. I've spent alot of time on boats. I may not know how to drive a skier, or back a trailer down a ramp, but someday I assume I'll own a boat and learn those things. In the meantime I am a mighty first mate and assistaint to whoever the boat owners are.

I drove home on Monday night, got lost, took me 4.5 hours to get home instead of 3.5. (We were camping at Shaver Lake, which is somewhat near Yosemite. Little further south.) My family is still there (Pop + girlfriend & dog, Sister, Sister + husband + kids, 2 extra kids whose wardobe consisted SOLELY of BYU cougars gear for the entire 5 days they planned on hanging with my family.

Wish me luck on the inspection. Send me hope to heal my broken heart.

(Below) My Dad walking the dog, and my sister and Dad wandering into the woods. I took some really awesome pictures of the kids in the woods, which were posed to blow up for art prints, but I can't share them on the off chance my sister ever finds my blog. She'd flip if her kids pictures were on the internet. Whatever.

So I am having a pretty bad week. My last boyfriend is getting married and I am feeling really hurt. I don't want to talk about it though. I am trying really hard everytime I start to cry to just breathe through my nose and empty my head and not think about everything. And I called Kaiser to make a counseling appointment. With everything going on in my life right now, with this on top of it, is way too much. I can't handle it anymore and I want some help.

I also have this gigantic cyst on the back of my hand which is starting to look freaky and is causing me pain so I need to make an appointment and have it drained or removed or something too. Haven't done that.

Just a brief update. I am going camping this weekend with my family, and I am trying to study today.

Oh, and since I haven't eaten much the last few days I dropped some more pounds, so I am over the 50 pound loss mark, which should be exciting, I just can't get excited. Also, I am now just "overweight" on the BMI scale, instead of "obese." Another big milestone.

EMILY IS POSTING A RECIPE.... EVERYONE, LET'S JOIN IN A ROUND OF APPLAUSE!



Ok, I love to bake and cook, I just never do it because I am lazy and hate to clean and my house is always a mess and I hate that I have to clean everything first before I feel like I can start cooking.



So I have been spending a fair amount of time watching the Food Network and reading Whitney's Lovin' from the Oven because I am obsessed with blogs and there are around 50 now that I check regularly- either because the person writes well and I like to read, or it's a cooking blog and I am hungry and want to look at food, (LOL) or most validly, photography blogs for research for work so can stay on top of my game and continue to grow and develop and all that stuff.



I was watching the Joy Luck Club and there is this scene in there where one of the women makes a "Chocolate Peanut Butter Pie" for her husband because he loves it and they show the pie and it looks so good. So I went hunting and I found a recipe!



So anyway, here is my recipe to share, complete with pictures!



CHOCOLATE PEANUT BUTTER PIE



Filling:

8 oz. cream cheese, softened (I used 1/3 less fat cream cheese)

1 c. sugar (I mixed sugar and splenda)

1 c. creamy peanut butter (I used reduced fat chunky)

2 T. melted butter (I used 50 calorie per tab light butter)

1 c. whipping cream

1 T. vanilla

I also added 6 tablespoons of Wheat Germ to the batter, makes it nuttier and adds protein.



Topping:

4 oz. semisweet chocolate

2 T. butter

2 T. salad oil (This is just vegetable oil)

1/4 c. chopped peanuts



Some kind of crust or pan to dump it in!



Whip cream until firm. Whip in vanilla and set aside. Whip creamcheese until fluffy, then slowly add sugar, peanut butter and butter.Blend 1/3 of the whipped cream into the peanut butter mixture. Foldpeanut butter mixture into remaining whipped cream. Fill pie crust,smoothing top. Carefully wrap with plastic and chill overnight. (I only waited a couple hours and it was fine)



Topping: combine chocolate, butter and oil in top of a double boilerover medium heat until mixture melts. Remove from heat and cool slightly.Spread chocolate on cooled pie, starting from center and working out.Sprinkle top with peanuts while chocolate is still soft.

Here I am whippin' the cream.


Here is the batter before adding the whipped cream.

After folding in the whipped cream.

Ready to go in the fridge!
I used the mini-pans so that I could control serving-size. I was going to use one big red0ced fat crust, but when I read the labels, I realized there was only a 10 calorie difference between the minis and the reduced fat so I thought- what's the point? So here's the finished product! The chocolate was easier to spread when it was a little cooler, by the way.





Ta-da! They are still setting, so I haven't tasted them yet but I can tell you right now that the batter tasted VERY GOOD!
:D
UPDATE! I just checked them and they are all set so I cut one in half, and it popped right out of the pie tin, which I was not expecting but was Soooo happy about, I took a bite...
OH MY GOODNESS. This is the best thing I have ever put in my mouth! WAY better than a real Reese's! AHHHH! I highly reccomend the grahmn cracker crust! I took small measures to make the recipe healthier and you so can't tell so I reccomend the same to you!
SO GOOD! OH MY GOODNESS! I have to give them away or I am going to eat all of these!!!!