But I don't know why I kept holding on...
Why did I?
I don't know.
For reasons I won't go into, I kind of feel like smacking him in the face right now. I feel... miffed... angry. He either doesn't know [about the investigation], or he knows and it wasn't a big deal at all.
Either way I feel bitter.
I was talking to my mom tonight about PTSD- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It's something alot of soldiers get when they come back from combat. I have it. She also told me that she spoke to another therapist about me. (Because me seeing my own therapist twice a week isn't enough, right?) That woman recommend EMDR, which is the second time I have been referred to that type of therapy. My sister had a really nasty dog bite- more like attack, that left her leg ripped open and landed her in the hospital and she has never walked with a dog again. That was 10 years ago. She did an EMDR session once, but it was too "out there" for her. Being the judgmental person she is, I'm surprised she tried it at all, but, right now I almost want to say I am proud of her for trying it. It's way out of the box for her personality. That said, my mom is an MFT and even she called it a bit of hocus pocus, but the point of the therapy is de-sensitization to the trauma, so anything that helps, right?
I don't know, it was just something we talked about so I thought I would mention it here too.
3 comments:
A close friend of mine is doing EMDR therapy with her therapist. I can't give you any details about her situation because I'm certain she'd want to keep it private, but she *thinks* it is working for her. I think it's really too early to tell, but maybe you ought to give it a try.
I think I needed to hear that saying even if it doesn't make me feel any better.
Tough day.
Thanks for the thought.
Take care of yourself.
I have done EMDR, it has helped even though some sessions were very difficult, it can bring up emotions you didn't know you had about the situation.
Good luck on your decision.
Christine
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