I spent most of Sunday in bed, crying and asking God to bring Matt home. It was not a high moment in my life.
Let's not talk about it.
It just reminds me that I am still grieving.
Saturday was just a draining, exhausting day overall. I shot an all-day wedding in near 100 degree heat- all outside, hours without water, and driving home extremely ill with a migraine- I was probably very vulnerable to an emotional breakdown just because I was so run down from the day before. It's no wonder I had a bad day.
So, I want to tell you about the small victory I had today, but I know now that there is someone reading my blog I specifically did not invite, and am not really friends with anymore, and I'm not comfortable talking about it because that person is a big gossip and likes to throw information around to make themselves sound important and to put other people down.
Fantastic. So now I'm in a position of censuring myself. I'm not sure what I should do. If I should change my blog address or make it private or what. Right now I feel like I should go back and change names and details because this person is such a busy body. People who have left comments... I'm fine with all of you guys. People who are following, I love you guys, please stay. But I'm not sure how to fix this. It's not like MySpace where you can block certain users from reading.
I feel very frustrated.
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Yeah that is definitely the challenge with blogs. I wish there was someway to block one person but really as long as it is public they could always just sign on with a different ip address. I had to make our blog private because there were a few people I didn't want to read my blog. And I hate that. I'd rather have it public. Anyway good luck!
I blog anonymously but have found over time that relatives and old friends have found out about it one way or the other. Do I censor myself? Nope. Okay so I don't throw around four letter words as much as I probably do in real life. lol.
Ultimately it's up to you to either ignore that particular person or like the lady above said, and change your blog to private.
Wishing you the best!
That is a tough one. I would say you are who you are and in the end they can take it or leave it and really them knowing won't change your situation one bit but I also know how it feels to have a secret and not wanting anyone to know or feeling like I had to be less than honest to cover things up. Hopefully you will find a way to work it so you can still be your honest self here as that is what makes it so compelling to read and what I have enjoyed most.
I would say take your blog private at least for a while, invite those who leave comments, and others you want to have access to it so you can be free to say what you want to say without fear of it becoming gossip.
Emily, I have just been catching up with what is going on in your life.
Firstly I would like to say I am sorry that you are going through this, but secondly you will get through it. You will heal and you will find love again, it will take some time, it is extremely difficult but you can do it.
I had a similar situation with my first husband, while he did not lie about his identity, he did lie about a lot of other things.
He would leave for work then tell me his work truck broke down and they wouldn't pay him for the day, meanwhile he was off with a friend doing drugs all day.
He stole girl scout cookie money to use for drugs (when I was cookie mom) and he told me he didn't get a Christmas bonus (which I had planned to use for xmas gifts for our two little girls) when in fact he did get a bonus and sucked it up his nose.
One day he left and moved in with another woman.
I too felt like you, shocked, betrayed, lost. Lost is a really good word; what I did have was two little girls that I needed to be strong for. To be a parent to and who needed me. My girls kept me going.
While you may not have 'human' children, you do have fur children, you also have a great career going (which I did not) and that will pull you through.
You CAN do this! You ARE strong! Hang in there.
My e-mail is auntiejodi@hotmail.com if you want someone to talk to. I am pulling for you.
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