Last week wrap up: Tuesday the world came to an end and everything went down, Wednesday I had a breakdown. Thursday, Therapy. Friday, car accident. Saturday I had to shoot a wedding... horrible. Saturday night my friend Cecilia came and got me to babysit (as in, to babysit ME) and I stayed at her house over Sunday, but I ended up walking into a couch REALLY hard and breaking a bone in my foot. I went to the Emergency Room on Monday after I attended my orientation for my crisis intervention counseling thing and got x-rays. I'm now in a very ugly and retarded looking boot/shoe thing and am hopefully getting crutches tomorrow. I'm on codeine too, which makes me really sleepy... which is a pretty good thing right now.
I just finished writing this out and since I won't be able to express it directly to Matt, I just decided to share it on here. These are questions I would like to ask Matt.
Why did you do this? What was going on personally that prompted you to do this?
Have you done this before?
Why did you lie so much? Why not just find someone who was interested in something extramarital?
How many partners have you had?
Was this your intention from Day 1?
Did anyone actually know about me? Did your partner know?
Are you Mormon? Were you married in the Temple?
When did your wife suspect? Why did she suspect? Have you guys not have a good relationship?
Why did you try to end things and then back out? Especially with the elaborate stories, rather than a straight break up?
Where did your wife think you were when you were with me?
What were you looking to get out of this? Physicality? Attention?
Were you having marital issues before this?
Why do to the extent you did with the lying? (Talking about marriage, kids, your parents saying "Hi" to me and how excited they were to meet me? etc.)
Who is Matt Timmons? Was he a part of this, or is he aware of this?
Did you think it was funny, or did you feel bad or...?
When you found out what a rough dating history I had, why didn't you get out of this?
Were you concerned I would find out?
Was any of it real for you? Were any of your feelings real? Did you or do you love me?
Were you ever in love with me?
Did you think I was crazy for being so into you when you knew the truth? Embarrassed?
Any regrets?
Sigh.
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If he were to answer these questions, you would be even more angry. I'm sure of it.
Obviously he and his wife were having problems. His daughter is 18 months and you were dating him for 18 months? It's the baby that made him stay with her.
This man is selfish. His own needs come first in his life. He doesn't have any regard for the feelings of you, the wife, the daughter or God. He threw a tantum like a 3 year old when he finally got "caught". He didn't apologize. He doesn't care.
You still need time to get through the mourning period and
it is hard to understand now but IT WILL GET BETTER.
Seriously, your week sounds like a bad soap opera.
Do you mind if I ask what your faith is and what your relationship with God is? My email is crabbymomofthree at comcast dot net if you want to email me.
Ok, I just saw the top of your blog. GET RID OF THE PICTURES OF MATT!! Seriously, now. You so don't need the reminder and your readers don't want to see him. I fear for his life if he is recognized.
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